In between the moment I let out my first cry up until this point in my life where I am nearing the quarter of a century mark (gasp!), thousands of circumstances have already come and gone and have shaped me into who I am today. The 16-year-old me is so different from the present me. I could have been "wrong" for you back then, but who's to say what the stars have for us now?
Second of all, Mr. Made Right, I am a firm believer in God's perfect timing. While I feel that that is a phrase many release too casually, I hold on to it like a child clings to his mother's hand on the first day of kindergarten. If we have not met yet, I am confident there is a reason why. I probably need more work, maybe we both do. Maybe we are at a point in our lives where our faith is not fully seasoned enough for us to step on to the next journey just yet. Maybe, maybe. But there is definitely a reason.
Third of all, when we do meet and you decide you want to pursue me (haba ng hair), please be patient with me. I probably won't make it easy, admittedly, because I am still a girl and I will tend to overthink. Are you "The One"? How will I know? What if there's someone else? How will our future look like if we end up together in the long run? Why aren't you texting with smiley faces?!
When you don't hear from me the whole day, I hope you don't sit on your man ego and not reach out to me "just because I didn't initiate the conversation first". Send me good morning texts to start my day, and good night messages that leave me smiling as I drift off to sleep. Excuse me, pakiligin mo naman ako! Charaught. When at times you feel I am being distant, I hope you will find strength and patience to deal with my distress. Pursuing me means pursuing God, too, maybe even pursuing Him more. You can only really get to my heart if you have God in yours.
Fourth of all, MMR, pursuing me also means that I won't be pursuing you. Wow, taray! Sometime last year, I came across a blog post by Ann Luna where she declares to a boy that she will never do the pursuing because that's simply not her part. I agree. So, dear MMR, when we finally meet, please do not expect me to chase after you. I will not force situations just so the two of us could be together. Even at the height of gender equality and feminine rights, I will still not do the pursuing. Call me old-fashioned, but the whole courtship process trumps modern dating (Tinder, anyone?) any day in my book. Swipe right? More like swipe wrong.
Fifth of all, I will care about you and what you do for a living. I sincerely hope you love what you are doing, and are not just going through the motions of the day with only that end-of-the-month pay check as your source of motivation. People say passion won't necessarily (and quickly) pay the bills in the beginning, and maybe they're right, maybe they're not, but I pray there is heart in your work.
I hope that you are in a place where there is favor upon you, where you feel fulfilled, and where your faith can grow. You might have already found your calling in your career, and that is fantastic! But if you feel as if you could still use a little push, you can rest in the thought that I will be right there with you with a push of encouragement and a tight embrace of support. I will care about you and what you do for a living because it will affect us today, and the tomorrows of our future family.
